This month I'm still feeling insecure about time, and I don't think that insecurity ever goes away. In relation to that, I feel insecure about networking and keeping in touch with people. Time has not always been the underlying issue. As far back as my teen years, when I had plenty of time to squander, I have never been very good at correspondence. When I moved from Arizona to Oklahoma at the age of 13, I had a lot friends' addresses (back in the age of snail mail) and I only managed to keep up with one friend for about two years. I email my closest cousin about once a year. I sometimes manage to call or text one of my best friends who lives far away once a month if she doesn't contact me first. The only people I keep up with properly are those I see in person on a regular basis. This "problem" does seem to be spreading into my blogging and social media habits and I feel bad for not responding as quickly as technology would allow me to. I think it's a mixture of time, procrastination, and perfectionism that hinders me in this area. I do want to make kind, informed comments on the blog posts I read, so I feel the need to read others' posts thoroughly, which takes time on some of the longer posts. I don't allot myself much time beyond writing my posts and there are certain times of the days when it's easier to concentrate on what I'm reading. As I look back at what I'm writing today, it does look like one big, long excuse, ha ha. But really, this is more of a self-evaluating psychoanalysis. If I could just get to the root of this problem, I could better myself and my relations with other people, and ultimately, be better prepared for networking and marketing my own books someday!
FYI: This has been more of a rant on myself and my own habits. It's not exactly an insecurity as much as it is an annoying habit that I want to work on changing. I will strive to utilize my time more wisely and stay a bit more caught up this month. I will tell you how it goes in next month's IWSG post :)
What are you insecure about this month? Do you ever have a hard time keeping up with people?